Fullness

Finally, I have a moment to update on my life. The past weeks since camp have been so full--full in the sense that my life is a cup overflowing and spilling over the brim! Rockbridge was incredible! I had a cabin of 9 wonderful girls and we had a blast together singing our hearts out at club, laughing our heads off at program, freezing down the zip line, braving the quantum leap, sharing our broken hearts during cabin time…I really could go on forever. I can’t quite explain my fullness and I definitely feel that I do not deserve the blessings in my life lately. Slowly, I’ve been learning to look for God in everything, a challenge that I’ve put strongly on my heart. Perhaps I am blessed because God show’s himself and his glory everywhere (whether we choose to see him or not) and just maybe I have gotten just a glimpse of that.







Last week after Campaigners I was so filled by God and how he worked through my girls that morning, but I was still pouring my heart out about how I have no idea where my future will lead even though I think I have it all planned out...will I get into PT school? Will I ever find a boy to love?! Will I be able to see my precious sophomore girls graduate?! Will I make it through life?! So I prayed, “Lord I need you to guide me. Show me what your will is for my life.” Then two seconds later, the song You Never Let Go came on the radio singing, "Oh Lord you never let go...Lord, you never let go of me." God was whispering, "Sandy, I am right here holding you in my arms. Trust me. I am here for you." I mean, wow. I can almost see God looking down on us lovingly shaking his head and kindly laughing at the mess of life that we make and then patiently waiting on us to call on his name once we figure out that we can’t do it on our own. It’s comforting to know that God is always in control.

Much has come and gone in my life in a mere two weeks, but perhaps the yearnings of my heart are more important to share at the moment. I was excited to have a slow week and do practically nothing, but it’s coming back to bite me in the butt with how much I’m going to have to do this upcoming week. But the end of the semester is near…can you believe it?! I’m hanging in there, trying my best to trust God with every step.